If I Should Learn
Feb 2025. Art Song for Soprano, Mezzo, and Piano / 3:25
This understated poem by Edna St. Vincent Millay (1892-1950) captures the speaker's muted response to the hypothetical news of a loved one's death. The casual and impersonal manner in which the speaker imagines learning of the loss highlights the emotional detachment and perhaps even numbness that accompanies such a devastating revelation. The poem's brevity and matter-of-fact language evoke a sense of shock and disbelief, as if the speaker is struggling to comprehend the enormity of the situation.
If I Should Learn by Edna St. Vincent Millay
If I should learn, in some quite casual way,
That you were gone, not to return again—
Read from the back-page of a paper, say,
Held by a neighbor in a subway train,
How at the corner of this avenue
And such a street (so are the papers filled)
A hurrying man—who happened to be you—
At noon to-day had happened to be killed,
I should not cry aloud—I could not cry
Aloud, or wring my hands in such a place—
I should but watch the station lights rush by
With a more careful interest on my face,
Or raise my eyes and read with greater care
Where to store furs and how to treat the hair.